The kindness of coworkers

So hot on the heels of this mornings moan and groan, I have a very small thing that while not quelling my imminenent panic attack (which seems to just be coasting under the surface today. seriously, it's like under my very thin veneer of civility I'm a monkey waiting to throw my emotional-poop at someone) at least makes a start in renewing the belief I attempt to cultivate taht things will work out.

A offers to take my weekend.

Now, before you wonder how one can a)possess a weekend b)give a weekend away and c)what on earth this has to do with me flinging emotional-poop, let me explain: it was my weekend to work, and the first one I'd had where there was actually stuff going on. and not just one thing, LOTS of things, far flung early monring things inlcuding groundhog abuse. This wouldn't be a problem, except current financial woes and the lack of my mileage cheque today mean I'm looking down the pipe at a half tank of gas trying to last for a whole week. several jaunts all over Nova Scotia won't help that.

Plus I'd have to get up at 6 am to go look at rodent torture, and it's supposed to freezing rain tonight- neither of which make me a cheery little leprechaun. which is probably a good thing.

So A offered to take my weekend, and I'll owe her a favour. particularly because we'd already swapped a weekend so I can have my birthday weekend off. and the boss in the toque (forever after to be known as BIT- boss in toque) said he didn't care, as long as everythign was covered he was a happy boy! this pleases me as I was waiting for condemnation of my work ethic from BIT, who tends towards the dramatic.


Basically what I learned is I need to chill and just go with it :)

I also just took a good hard look at the ol'finances. and while my tummy tends to go towards the throwing-up-it's-contents-in-utter-panic-and-dispair, I'm ACTUALLy squeeking by this week. Squeek Squeek. welocme to the wonderful world of your mid-20's children, where it's a constant roller coaster ride of panice, guilt, dispair, and bearly breaking even all in a fun liquor-and-pot package!